Internal Conflictions

Lately I have been forced yet again to deal with my anti-social issues. I have asked myself many questions as to why its so hard to vibrate on the same freqency as the people around me. Granted, I simply cannot stand most of the people I am forced to deal with on an everyday basis, but there are a very selective few that I wouldn't mind getting to know a bit more. Furthermore, everytime I finally gather up the courage to go and try to talk with them, something always manages to pull me back. There is one person in particular that I have wanted to spend some time with lately and just can't bring myself to it. So I have a few reasons as to why talking to people has become so difficult: 1) I am too biased upon opinions that I don't want to hear from other perspectives on life. Having established a stiff structure to the daily grind of my life tends to hold me back on occasion. 2) I hate people in general, and I don't like to add individuals on the "exceptions" list. As the list grows, my stiff structure lessens its grip. 3) I will openly admit to everyone out there that there are many times that I feel superior to everyone else, that I am always right and they are obviously wrong. Do not misunderstand my words: I am aware that that last statement is terribly incorrect, but I have no desire to change the strict opinions I have had for so long now. In conclusion, I have yet another internal conflict to settle with myself: do I go against everything I have abided by for years and open up to world, or shall I let these people slip out of my life as if I never knew them? Its an issue that only I can sort out, so I would like to ask my readers a releated question: have you been in a situation in which you have had to go against your personal preferences and beliefs? How did you respond to your internal conflict; did you learn anything from your experience?